I'm happy cause you're now happy (:

Hope he treats you well! <3

Do you ever miss me?

Cause lately I've been missing you like crazy.

Hope you been well.

Cause I'm barely hanging by a thread.

I miss you so much.

And you probably don't even know it. I constantly think about you still as if we were still going out. I still think about what you are doing every minute of the day what you're thinking about and do you think of me as much of I think of you? I hope you are doing well. You know what's funny is that I'm actually taking this break up so much harder than I thought I would've it's been months and all I can think about is you. Yeah I tried to move on but it doesn't work. I'm trying to find you in all those girls I try to talk to. I stay up at night hoping one day you'll text me first asking how I'm doing. That you'll call me one day and tell me that you still love me and maybe one day we'll be back together and be happy again. Because with you was when I was my happiest. I'm still sorry til this day and I regret everything I did. But the thing I regret most is letting you go so easily I should've fought a little harder maybe just not fuck up. That all I needed to do was not fuck up. And I couldn't even do that. Sigh. I hope you been doing well it's not the same talking to you anymore just feels like you push me away now of days and just doesn't feel right looking at babybear in my phone anymore I just can't get myself to change it in my phone. I hope nothing for the best for you. I love you.

-Kevin Dao

days like these..

Make me happy (: where just sit around and just watch greys... find random other stuff to do xD like you know time how fast you fall asleep thats when you know were bored as hell! good night good vibes as people say just reminds me of back in the day fnrrrr. ugh i need to come see you ASAP!! this being away from you shiet aint cutting bro! it sucks :/ i just wanna hold you kiss you etc.. booo life sucks when your away from me... today all i could really think about is living in oklahoma and what we would do is that weird? xD heheh well idk today was a whatever day for me i just fixed my car and worked-.- dont let one grade make you sad babe! this is just one :P i know you can do way better :D well i love yoooou. <3 ugh i still feel shitty about valentines day... sucks ass. horrible boyfriend. blah blah blah ): love you.

keveezy <<< GAY.

Happy Valentines Day :D

wooooo im so sleepy right now but i know if i dont write it now ima get really lazy and not write it :P ugh we both barely got any sleep last night but im really happy that we actually got to talk the last 30 mins idk seems like it was an actual convo that wasnt really was about akdphi xD not that its a bad thing but yeah :P hehehe im not mad! i know youre just excited about everything happening right now :D i just really wish we could finally spend a valentines together :/ but yeah todays been a good day just cause i made a 95 on my test idk i just feel more confident now you taught me too well babyyy thanks for always being there for me when i need your help on anything even though you have stuff to do and you being all grumpy :P but you still like to help :3 teeheeee. i keep wanting to send you roses or something but yeah waste of money i do wanna save it up and get an LV bad tbh i know its alot but you know can be your 1 gift for 3121231 years hahah jk but one day maybe ill find someone with a good ass hook up! you know work my magic! i guess its not to bad blogging now i just need to take the time to actually write it. i hope youre have a nice day at work.. hopefully spring break will bring us together again<3 i love you, happy valentines day. Sorry i couldnt come and surprise you or buy you anything special today. bad boyfriend :/ i know.

Bae!

2 busy 4 me.

hehehhe titles are dumb and i cant think of one xD But stop thinking that im gonna leave you just cause your "busy" :P you are fine baby. Thats what college is about right? actually having a life :P unlike me im not cooler than you anymore! you are totally so much cooler than me now... Everybodys wants to hang out with you now! mrs sorority over there! getting wasted every weekend and what not hahha jk. yous a good girl. or thats what i think!!! ugh im like so freaking hungry... but yeah babe you dont have to worry about me leaving unless you like somebody else or you cheat on me or something buuuuuut! other than that you good bae just atleast you come home to me every night and im good (: just want you to be happy :D !! yay you asked me to be your valentines for the first time ever!! but via text you are so gayy. grow some balls ask me face to face!! where i can hear your voice hahah im justkidding what happen to asking me in a cute way huh?! pshhh never betting with you again you suck! my dick.... so what did you get me for valentines huh huh huh?! jk being with you is enough for me! you dont have to spoil me just spoil me with your love! how gay is that haha. well i love you happy valentines day baby one day i shall take you on a very romantic date.. and it wont even be valentines teehee i love you even though youre too busy for me now haha jk<3 ill always be at home waiting for you okay?! no life kevin hahha

Clingy doeeeee

I dont even know why i feel like extra extra clingy fnr.. like you dont even know all i wanna do is talk talk talk to you ugh i gotta stop myself from over texting you sometimes >.> BLAAH im sorry if i am super clingy sometimes im sorry ):  this isnt like me though.... but i just soooo in love with you. -gag- hahah. i guess ima try to blog more now or just yahhh. since you want me to write more.. you know how long this is gonna last :P just kidders. ill try my best doe. doh. hoe. oopsies just called you a hoe. ahhahha man im so gay. ugh im sorry about always being "mad" when you leave just cant stop thinking about how big of a baby i am and dont wanna share you. and you all out yell at me ): that sucks hahah never ever again.. and you like just up and left... likeeee. BYEEEEE see you later! hahah scary scary when you are mad. thats why i never wanna pick fights with you. :P im glad we arent that overly in love couple were like that chill couple thats basically bestfriends the type people want yeahh we perfect fo each other -hairflips- hahha <3 im gaaaay. well i guesss this is it for today my wrist hurts so much like i dont even know why i feel like i slept on it or something hhahha by babe i love you. i have a way to ask you out!! but it might be too homo but itll be between us not everybody will see it teeheeeeeeee. hopefully it works out xD love you..

boothaaang.

i blog when im sad... so what...

Blah what a day what a day.... i dont know i just feel so distant from you right now.. yeah we talk everyday but it seems like you have alot to do now busy with school and such... idk just feels different to me. not gonna lie yes im scared of losing you, but i know were not gonna let that happen. no lie i do feel lonely a lot. all my friends have "other" friends they can also hang out with.. and thats why i cherish you so much cause you are my "other" <3 but youre so far away and now you have a family to attend too hahhaha oh well its a process that i gotta learn to share you. i suck at not showing my feelings now of days i used to be the best at hiding them.. but you know you get the best of me right? i never felt this way towards another person before. being with you was like a reset button i felt like i just experience everything for the first time again.. sorry if im not like the guy you first met and that i have changed a lot i dont know if i have for the good or bad but i know ive changed and i wanna apologize if i did change for the worst. ive been trying my best not to lose you again and i just wanna tell you that i love you and youre my everything and you should already know that. ill always stick by your side no matter what. I hope your enjoying life right now! youve been the most happiest i ever seen since i meet you. everything seems to be going just dandy for you (: & i couldnt be any happier. you always was scared that you didnt know who your friends are but i guess college has brought you a new beginning. and this is just the beginning of a very long journey to your future. im proud of you. i love you.

What A CHEAAAAATER!!

UUUUUUUGHHHHHH!!!! im a winnnnner i swuuuur. like you dont even know im to good for this game!! hahaha.

Why are you like the greatest girlfriend in the world? i know you arent my girlfriend now, but it just feels like you are now, and i just like how were progressing and hopefully it leads us to get back together! i love you and im trying to be the best person i can be. Thank you for always having my back on everything and i love that you never give up on me even though im give up on myself sometimes. UGH you are such a lazy studyerrrrr now not focus at all!!! is this how you feel when i dont study hahah why am i like this now look what you turned me into D:< A NERD. hahha justkidding look at you changing me into a nerd. but i am more tuned into school and suchh. and i hope your proud of me :D trying my best! sigh.. why am i so scared of losing you more than anything in the world just the thought of you being with someone else just makes my heart sink.  my mind is blank right now. just cant wait to see you again! i wanna spend christmas with you and do cute couple stuff and go look at the lights and blah blah blahhhhh. time to go watch you study okay i love you MUAH!

-ugly.

im going crazy...

AHHHHHHH. cant stop thinking about you. i really need help haha i want you back i feel like my head is gonna blow up </3 faahhhhk

I think its finally time...

to finally give up. You seem to have the final straw with me. Yeah were webcamming and such but right now i just feel like being a little baby a cry my eyes out. actually i already am tears just forming in my eye rolling down my cheeks. gosh 2 years.. and it seems you just wanna be done with me. i never really had this vibe from you before it fucking sucks it really does. sigh i guess you just dont understand how much i truly love you, but im the one that pushed you away with my actions so i guess im just contradicting myself again huh. fml. this fucking sucks cant get the thought of you of out of my head. all the memories.. thats just what im stuck with. as much as i wanna stay and fight for you. its just. not the same. your just pushing me away farther and farther. sigh. i dont know what to do anymore. it hurts to hear what you have to say to what i have to say. cause to me it doesnt mean shit to you. but who am i to tell you. fdskljflksdjfklsdjfklsdjkl. You know i always told you i wont give up on you. I'd fight for you til the end. You dont know how hard it is for me. I just wanna come see you. i Just want a hug from you. I know it wont change anything really its just like closure really. So you asked me if i wanted to talk about it. I just cant get the courage to tell you with out crying. sigh how embarrassing. how could i just fuck something up so bad. im fucking madly in love with you. this time this break up is so hard to handle. fuck. sigh i just wanna talk to you normally again.

Wish you actually stayed up to listen to the stuff i have to say sometimes. you know pouring my heart out and what not. sigh whatever. not your problem anymore.

KD: HAPPPPY VALENTINES BABY!

Oh look its ugly me. And that girl i fell inlove with. One day were gonna spend valentines together and ill make it one of the best dates you'll ever gone on. ugh i wish i could just spend it with you already. days go by and it just makes me miss you more and more. i know i havent been nice. ive been sleepy. ive been not home. i promise its not a routine. it wont be. thats for sure. omg like what is wrong with my face in that picture LMFAO. i wanna be that romantic boyfriend that brings you flowers and chocolates to school. make you feel like the most specialist girlfriend in the world in front of errrbody. but i know i should already making you feel like the most bestest girlfriend already. and i try my best. dang its been so long since we oovoo'd haha im looking back at these pictures look how short your hair was OMGGG. why you so cuuuute. gah<3 every inch of you is duh sexy ;D hahah. thank you for everything esp for last years gift haha maybe you should make me another cd to jam too! man i suck ass at making stuff for you well i only made that card for our one year :P yeah not so good. im such a bum now of days. i swear i have nothing better to do with my life but i, just lazy i havent worked at coldstone yet and im lazy as hell. your going out with a bum. im sorry haha. well i think this is long enough. i hope you have a great valentines day! dont get to jealous :P and be safe in the icy conditions! i love yoou very much<3 and miss you very dearly. hope everything be fine at home with leo and the nieces! hahahha random line but i love you. always know that kay?kay. MUAAAH.

...but i'd never leave you crying by yourself../:

-d

HEHE YEAH YOU BETTER STUDY!

jan 16, 2012

KDEZZY : Babe, Do you really see a future in us?

It's been pondering my mind if you actually do see a future in us. I know we fight a lot now ,but i just wanna know if you just see my as a long term boyfriend. I don't know i can't help but how we are gonna be in our future. I really do wanna go up to OU go to school and live and spend time with you but plans arent just going that way right now. With my family low on money.... i know its always been our plan to go to school with each other we can but.. yeah. I honestly do see a future in us. i really do want us to work out i want us to grow old together and just spend our time together. i know were far away and things has just been so hard lately mostly because of me. But i need to change everything yes i know you heard this before. but i believe this truly is that last chance you are going to give me so ima make the most out of it. sorry ive been making you so mad. and sorry for making you have such a terrible week. i just seem to be the cause of all your troubles. :/ sigh i love you baby! thanks for being the best ever.

I'm so pathetic. Why do I always have to cry?

What happened to the guy I knew anyways?

Good bye forever... we had a good run.

dt.

I wanna ask, but I can't. I wanna know, but there is no way of knowing without asking.

Sometimes I wonder if you think the decisions you made were silly or how I get upset is silly.

Where is my Girlfrann?

she just disappeared and she doesnt seem to be picking up my phone call and i really really miss her and im kinda worried D: baby! where are you i been wanting to talk to you and you just vanished </3 ugh babeee my heart like sank booooooo! i love you & i miss you dearly.

dt

Don't call me dear or baby anymore.