I think its finally time...

to finally give up. You seem to have the final straw with me. Yeah were webcamming and such but right now i just feel like being a little baby a cry my eyes out. actually i already am tears just forming in my eye rolling down my cheeks. gosh 2 years.. and it seems you just wanna be done with me. i never really had this vibe from you before it fucking sucks it really does. sigh i guess you just dont understand how much i truly love you, but im the one that pushed you away with my actions so i guess im just contradicting myself again huh. fml. this fucking sucks cant get the thought of you of out of my head. all the memories.. thats just what im stuck with. as much as i wanna stay and fight for you. its just. not the same. your just pushing me away farther and farther. sigh. i dont know what to do anymore. it hurts to hear what you have to say to what i have to say. cause to me it doesnt mean shit to you. but who am i to tell you. fdskljflksdjfklsdjfklsdjkl. You know i always told you i wont give up on you. I'd fight for you til the end. You dont know how hard it is for me. I just wanna come see you. i Just want a hug from you. I know it wont change anything really its just like closure really. So you asked me if i wanted to talk about it. I just cant get the courage to tell you with out crying. sigh how embarrassing. how could i just fuck something up so bad. im fucking madly in love with you. this time this break up is so hard to handle. fuck. sigh i just wanna talk to you normally again.

Wish you actually stayed up to listen to the stuff i have to say sometimes. you know pouring my heart out and what not. sigh whatever. not your problem anymore.