DT

Truth is, apologizing just to apologize doesn't work. It's not your fault then it's not your fault. Why try to make it your fault just to make everything better? It doesn't work and it's frustrating.

KD: Happy confirmation love (:

Oh looks it's your turn to be confirmed I hope you gotten a lot of it and that you become a stronger and more closer to God (: cause I know your always a good girl :D so I dont have to worry about anything (: it's a big mile stone in your catholic life and I bet your gonna enjoy everything tomorrow :D it's your day tomorrow so remember to enjoy it! I'm so proud to see you getting confirmed I was I could be there like I said I would but you know me always disappointing you ): but I'll be there spiritually hehe corny I know but I'm happy for you :D good job babe on making it this far (: well I shall go back to talking with you! I'm not mad or anything Kay Kay (: love you babe!
-Kevinnnn Dao.

04/02/11

18.

To start off, I would like to say happy eighteenth monthiversary.

This isn't the way I thought it would turn out either, but so be it I suppose. I feel like there is just so much tension between us. Either that or it's all in my head. So many unspeakable emotions seem to be going through your head. My mind is blank and I am completely at a loss of words. You've never been so angry and disappointed in me before. My heart was just hurting last night. It was a feeling I've never had before and I don't even know what to do when it happens. I'm going through the motions of life, yet it feels like I'm not living my life. I'm just simple doing as I'm supposed to. I'm just so dazed. I've made mistakes and been the biggest clutz ever these past days. I can't even bear to smile really. I can't take that photo for you... I have no life left in me to put a smile on. I can't believe what's happening to us. This was never supposed to happen. Things weren't supposed to get this hard... There isn't even a way to fix it really and that's why it sucks. There's no clear solution to the problem. I can't even come up with an idea. I'm desperate at this point and slowly, but surely, approaching the breaking point. I bet you've already been there though. I didn't know you were so angry with me until you said you punched the wall...twice! Gosh, just repeating it makes me stomach do flips. You've never been so angry with me. I'll never get over that. The only time that has come close was when we were breaking up and you were yelling at me. But this time, it's different, you're so angry you don't even have words to say to me anymore. What more can I do? More? Please. I haven't even done anything. I am the most useless person right now. I can't even take you out of your misery. How am I supposed to help myself? I can't do this anymore... please let there be an answer soon.
-dianetong

KD: not forgottennnn never have neva will

I haven't forgotten I was actually writing a blog the other day and than I had to leave and than my little brother deleted. I actually look at our blog everyday and I read it when I have my bad days<3 makes me happy(: I really don't want the future to happen anymore :/ cause I just want you to stay it's kinda hard thinking about what you said I mean we have our good days and it makes me forget about it but than when we don't I'm just scared ... I know I'm gonna lose you. But maybe we can change that right? It gets me really sad sometimes unbearable sometimes. But it's whatever I'll put on my big boy pants and just deal with it. I can't wait til I get to see you again I think I'll reliever all my stress <3 ohhh how I love it when I see you best feeling in the world I tell you!!(: weeeee I want my car D< so I can go on my visiting spree to see you. I really really miss you your hugs your presence your everything. I just don't want this to all go to waste well okay I'll stop with this blabbberinggg. I love you my baby <33 your the best!
-kdizzzy LOL

DT: It's been a month since something has been posted

Have you forgotten about this?