What A CHEAAAAATER!!

UUUUUUUGHHHHHH!!!! im a winnnnner i swuuuur. like you dont even know im to good for this game!! hahaha.

Why are you like the greatest girlfriend in the world? i know you arent my girlfriend now, but it just feels like you are now, and i just like how were progressing and hopefully it leads us to get back together! i love you and im trying to be the best person i can be. Thank you for always having my back on everything and i love that you never give up on me even though im give up on myself sometimes. UGH you are such a lazy studyerrrrr now not focus at all!!! is this how you feel when i dont study hahah why am i like this now look what you turned me into D:< A NERD. hahha justkidding look at you changing me into a nerd. but i am more tuned into school and suchh. and i hope your proud of me :D trying my best! sigh.. why am i so scared of losing you more than anything in the world just the thought of you being with someone else just makes my heart sink.  my mind is blank right now. just cant wait to see you again! i wanna spend christmas with you and do cute couple stuff and go look at the lights and blah blah blahhhhh. time to go watch you study okay i love you MUAH!

-ugly.

im going crazy...

AHHHHHHH. cant stop thinking about you. i really need help haha i want you back i feel like my head is gonna blow up </3 faahhhhk

I think its finally time...

to finally give up. You seem to have the final straw with me. Yeah were webcamming and such but right now i just feel like being a little baby a cry my eyes out. actually i already am tears just forming in my eye rolling down my cheeks. gosh 2 years.. and it seems you just wanna be done with me. i never really had this vibe from you before it fucking sucks it really does. sigh i guess you just dont understand how much i truly love you, but im the one that pushed you away with my actions so i guess im just contradicting myself again huh. fml. this fucking sucks cant get the thought of you of out of my head. all the memories.. thats just what im stuck with. as much as i wanna stay and fight for you. its just. not the same. your just pushing me away farther and farther. sigh. i dont know what to do anymore. it hurts to hear what you have to say to what i have to say. cause to me it doesnt mean shit to you. but who am i to tell you. fdskljflksdjfklsdjfklsdjkl. You know i always told you i wont give up on you. I'd fight for you til the end. You dont know how hard it is for me. I just wanna come see you. i Just want a hug from you. I know it wont change anything really its just like closure really. So you asked me if i wanted to talk about it. I just cant get the courage to tell you with out crying. sigh how embarrassing. how could i just fuck something up so bad. im fucking madly in love with you. this time this break up is so hard to handle. fuck. sigh i just wanna talk to you normally again.

Wish you actually stayed up to listen to the stuff i have to say sometimes. you know pouring my heart out and what not. sigh whatever. not your problem anymore.

KD: HAPPPPY VALENTINES BABY!

Oh look its ugly me. And that girl i fell inlove with. One day were gonna spend valentines together and ill make it one of the best dates you'll ever gone on. ugh i wish i could just spend it with you already. days go by and it just makes me miss you more and more. i know i havent been nice. ive been sleepy. ive been not home. i promise its not a routine. it wont be. thats for sure. omg like what is wrong with my face in that picture LMFAO. i wanna be that romantic boyfriend that brings you flowers and chocolates to school. make you feel like the most specialist girlfriend in the world in front of errrbody. but i know i should already making you feel like the most bestest girlfriend already. and i try my best. dang its been so long since we oovoo'd haha im looking back at these pictures look how short your hair was OMGGG. why you so cuuuute. gah<3 every inch of you is duh sexy ;D hahah. thank you for everything esp for last years gift haha maybe you should make me another cd to jam too! man i suck ass at making stuff for you well i only made that card for our one year :P yeah not so good. im such a bum now of days. i swear i have nothing better to do with my life but i, just lazy i havent worked at coldstone yet and im lazy as hell. your going out with a bum. im sorry haha. well i think this is long enough. i hope you have a great valentines day! dont get to jealous :P and be safe in the icy conditions! i love yoou very much<3 and miss you very dearly. hope everything be fine at home with leo and the nieces! hahahha random line but i love you. always know that kay?kay. MUAAAH.

...but i'd never leave you crying by yourself../:

-d

HEHE YEAH YOU BETTER STUDY!

jan 16, 2012