Well, here I am. I am very distraught. I don't regret telling you because that was the right thing to do. I'm sad that I lack that much trust in you that I have to go through your phone thing. But, I can't believe I can love someone so much to go to that big of an extent. I just wanted to know, did you love me as much as I love you? Am I someone who could be easily replaced with someone else? Do you pamper people with as much attention as I think you do? I am the crazy one. I am the one that did the unthinkable. You keep saying, "It's just never happened to me before." My response that is, "So?" What does that have to do with anything? Are you saying that if someone previously did that to you then it would be okay for me to do it? Well, if that's the case maybe your next girlfriend will have more luck because she can pull whatever shit she wants and it won't be freakin' crazy to you anymore. Okay, that was unnecessary to say.
I guess what I'm trying to say is I did take it too far...but, I only did it because of you.
You drove me to that point. I'm not proud of what I did, but I do not regret it. Whatever gives me peace of mind. I couldn't depend on you for the truth anymore, so I had to find out myself. I went to the extreme to know. I couldn't take just sitting around thinking and wondering anymore. I needed answers that no one would give me.
I am a psycho.
-d
I guess what I'm trying to say is I did take it too far...but, I only did it because of you.
You drove me to that point. I'm not proud of what I did, but I do not regret it. Whatever gives me peace of mind. I couldn't depend on you for the truth anymore, so I had to find out myself. I went to the extreme to know. I couldn't take just sitting around thinking and wondering anymore. I needed answers that no one would give me.
I am a psycho.
-d
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