i blog when im sad... so what...

Blah what a day what a day.... i dont know i just feel so distant from you right now.. yeah we talk everyday but it seems like you have alot to do now busy with school and such... idk just feels different to me. not gonna lie yes im scared of losing you, but i know were not gonna let that happen. no lie i do feel lonely a lot. all my friends have "other" friends they can also hang out with.. and thats why i cherish you so much cause you are my "other" <3 but youre so far away and now you have a family to attend too hahhaha oh well its a process that i gotta learn to share you. i suck at not showing my feelings now of days i used to be the best at hiding them.. but you know you get the best of me right? i never felt this way towards another person before. being with you was like a reset button i felt like i just experience everything for the first time again.. sorry if im not like the guy you first met and that i have changed a lot i dont know if i have for the good or bad but i know ive changed and i wanna apologize if i did change for the worst. ive been trying my best not to lose you again and i just wanna tell you that i love you and youre my everything and you should already know that. ill always stick by your side no matter what. I hope your enjoying life right now! youve been the most happiest i ever seen since i meet you. everything seems to be going just dandy for you (: & i couldnt be any happier. you always was scared that you didnt know who your friends are but i guess college has brought you a new beginning. and this is just the beginning of a very long journey to your future. im proud of you. i love you.